Thursday, December 8, 2011

Belated Friday Happy Post

I know, I know. Its been a few weeks since my last happy post and for something I said I was going to do weekly, I've been pretty inconsistent. But! I'm here. I haven't forgotten to take the time to acknowledge the little things in life that I'm grateful for, I'm just a lazy blogger. I do plan on working on that though!

So here's this week's list.

My shiny new MacBook Air (yes, it's ridiculous how such a material item can lift my spirits, but it does), running fast down hills, puppies, Rell's Runners, the sense of achievement running 15kms gave me, gorgeous friends, new music, glorious warm Summer weather, new clothes, smashing goals, the possibilities 2012 offers, hot baths.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Friday Happy Post Time

Hello! I have a lot to be thankful for this week and it's lead up to me being i a very cheerful mood!

Early morning run on Wednesday, smashing it before going into a big long boring "team building" meeting at work, photos of the thunderstorm on Wednesday, getting approved for a house - and it being THE place we wanted, planning things, looking forward to getting to know a new area, chilling at Gluttony yesterday with Callum and seeing a gorgeous Ewen McGregor type in the street, Jake cooking dinner last night, throwing out stuff I don't need anymore, packing, the gorgeous sunshine today, being involved in the lovely Em's video about running, not being completely disgusted when I see myself on camera, little mrrrr-pa noises made by my cat, writing lists and ticking things off, new opportunities, and of course other happy bloggers!

Ok, off to pick up my friends puppy dog at the vet so I might add now, picking up a happy dog at the vets and laughing at his cone head.

Thursday, November 3, 2011


Well last week I was such a misery guts I totally piked out on just the second week of "happy posting" - probably at the time I needed it the most. This week has been a bit of a roller coaster too so I am making the point to sit down and take the time and acknowledge the things that have made me happy during this time. House hunting has become the focus of my time at the moment, and it's something that's throwing me through a loop - I can't stand this feeling of limbo, not know where I will live, even what area I'll be in, so I can't even do research into how I'll get around, what will be a great local cafe, where can I go running, I can't imagine how my life will be in just a matter of weeks and this kind of thing really gets to me.

So instead of focusing on all these factors I have no control over, it's time to take a big deep breath and give some time to the things that have bought me moments of happiness this week.

Running 12kms for the very first time and feeling strong the whole run and finishing with nothing left, getting a second wind, my gorgeous friends on Twitter, sitting at a cafe in the sun on Tuesday with my best friend Callum, remembering it's my 5th wedding anniversary tomorrow! (where does the time go?!!), fresh bed sheets, my gorgeous friends' first baby arriving - so happy for them!

So there hasn't been a lot because I've been so focused on relocating my life, and letting the stress and negativity get to me. Every day I am going to work a bit harder to put positivity out there and hope in return some good will come back in my direction and I can get on with my life.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Friday, I'm in love.

This is why Twitter rocks. I have made some awesome friends through 12WBT and Twitter has helped me stay in contact, connect and watch their lives change. Just the other week Kath (@justmekath)posted a great challenge and had us all blog about "finding the joy" - not only did I LOVE this post, but I really loved reading everyone else's lists of what made them happy, what added a spark to their life, what moments made them feel amazing.

I can't remember how it all started, but suddenly the gorgeous Em (@EmmyLou12wbt) and I had made a deal that we were going to do this ALL THE TIME. This was a great thing to do. Take one day a week out and just remember all the good stuff that happened that week. Embrace it.

So here I am.

Things that have made me happy this week;

Sunrises, sun sets, the warmth, the weather being warm enough to really enjoy the shade, making some huge decisions, that really amazing pump class organised by Rell and Lisa - um how cool was that? Having sore muscles all week, my friends, the gorgeous people I have met over the last 6 months - how can I have not met such amazing people before now!? Wanting to run, knowing I can, Beachfield, and like Emmy I also loved Tuesday morning's fog - wish I took a photo! Merri Creek doesn't sound too inspiring but gosh it was pretty that morning. Really putting the UMPH into the last 500 metres of a run. Seeing hot air balloons at dawn - I don't know why, but it makes me infinitely happy, and I'm grateful for it. And how quiet it is in the early hours. Feeling comfortable when I am alone. That's a big thing for me.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Blogging Challenge 5: All Kinds of Awesome

I have to say, shouting out that I'm "all kinds of awesome" are just not words I would use to describe myself! I think it's my inner editor saying "Erm, how many kinds of awesome are there, exactly?" but that's not what this challenge is about. I can say one thing, the things I have done this year, the things I can do and the things I will do, make me just that. Awesome!

One of the most awesome things I've done is become a woman of my word. Everything I have said I would do this year, I have done! And all those things I want to get done before the year is through? Pfft, no problem! Consider it done!

Tomorrow I'm going to start publishing a blog about "Things that make happy" per week. Last weeks challenge "Finding the Joy" is the inspiration for this. I don't think we spend enough time reflecting on the simple things that make life enjoyable.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Blogging Challenge 4

1. Describe in 25 words or less (why is it always 25 words) the you that you were before 12wbt:

Well. I was erratic, and trapped in a cycle of bad habits. I wasn't in control and that stressed me out.

2. Now - who are you now??

I am still me! I'm just a better version of me. A healthy me. A happy me.

3. What has the hardest been the hardest thing to make habit THIS ROUND?

The hardest thing to make a habit this round is getting used to this new body, and to continue to treat it well! This round has been tough for me, because I have not been here before.

4. What has been easier to make habit than you thought it would be?

Early morning training. 6 months ago I was all "look there is no way I'll be getting up before 7am to train, so let's not even go there!" but now I'm all over getting up, getting my training done and then getting on with the day. It makes you feel strong. And there is nothing quite as cool as running in the morning, watching the sun rise and the world wake up.

5. How has your body changed THIS ROUND?

Someone said my arms had muscle definition yesterday - yes, I kind of loled at the time, but I'm excited about toning up!

6. How has your mindset changed this round?

Oooh, this is a tough one - I mentioned it in question 3 - this round my mindset has shifted. I don't think losing weight matters to me anymore, even though I still have a fair few kilos to lose. My priorities have changed and so has my mindset. I don't care about the number on the scales at the moment. I just want to be fit and strong and I want to see what my body can do.

7. Finish this sentence "I now know I am strong because ..."

I know what I have achieved and what I can achieve in the future. With that self belief comes strength.

8. Finish this sentence "I am proudest of ...."

Everything! I have worked hard! I am proud that I was a person of my word, and I did what I set out to do.

9. Finish this sentence "In 8 more weeks you will see me ...."

Run 15kms! #goteam15kms!

10. What word applies to you now - that you never would have used before 12wbt?

A runner. Fit. Strong. Able. In control. Happy.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Blogging Challenge Week 3 - Find the Joy.

Ok, so the lovely Kath from The Courage to Start says this week, we need to find our joy. The things we can turn to when life is getting us down, and suddenly feel better.

Some people have explained in detail why these things bring them joy, but for me, when I go through this list, some of it I can't explain. And I'm not going to question it, just embrace it and take it as a gift.

Sunrises, music, shiny shoes, running in the early hours and seeing hot air balloons in the sky, Twitter family, watching people grow, my friends, my husband, my cat's little mrrrrpa noise she makes, daylight savings, seeing what I can do, making plans, setting goals, film, animals, the beach, the children's farm, watching stupid television, eating breakfast in the sun, good coffee, good wine, art, gorgeous clothing, Foggy (RIP), endorphins, living in Melbourne, Melbourne weather, the sun, stormy weather, knowing there are things in the world that look like this:

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Overcoming Struggles

Last week I tried to post, but found myself continually punching negative self talk, excuses, and just general whineyness into the keyboard and not loving what I was reading. It wasn't who I wanted to be. So I struggled on until I rode the wave through.

Now saying "I rode the wave through" makes it sound like it was easy - nu-uh girlfriend. It was hard. I found myself unusually snippy and in a thunderous mood. By the end of the week I realised I had managed to let my entire week slip - I caved to those red flag days because my folks were visiting from interstate, I was tired, I made excuse after excuse and suddenly it had been a week since I'd trained. And to be honest, the week before hadn't been that crash hot either.

Riding the wave? No, I'm not convinced either.

What happened next? Wellllll, I'd LIKE to say I snapped back to it and "jumped back on the wagon" (ugh, I hate that phrase!), but it's been a process. The first step was the hardest. Getting back out on the pavement.

I had planned to head on out to Jells Park but OF COURSE the neck issue I mentioned in my last posts reared it's ugly head as a result of not sleeping well and not being kind to my body. So yet another day was a write off.

Sunday I spent most of the day talking myself out of going for a run - that voice in my head telling me how hard it would be because I'd let my training slide for so long started up, but I laced up my sneakers and headed out anyway. 8kms later and one of the longest runs I've done outdoors ever, was done. And I smashed it. I was BACK!

Then came Monday, I has a small drama at work. I'll spare you the details, but it made me stressed, upset and panicky all day and there I was - ready to come home miserable, tired and ready to sink onto the couch with a glass of wine and sulk. Instead, I ran. And it felt amazing. It got it out. I MUST REMEMBER THAT THIS WORKED!

Making that choice was huge for me, a turning point for me.

I'm finally feeling back to my normal self again. I'm excited for the week ahead. I'm back to working towards my goals.

One of my big goals this round was to work on my core strength. It's something I really need to develop, my physio tells me this every time my neck plays up. So this morning - only 3 weeks late - I'm heading to a Body Balance class at the gym.

Secondly, by the end of this round, I am going to run 15km. This week I've caught up on my running plan designed by the gorgeous Rell Frichot. Today I have a fantastic 6km run planned out. It was sunny when I went outside a moment ago, but hey, this is Melbourne and if I stop doing something every time it rains here, I'll never get anything done!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Round 2 Blogging Challenge - What Is Health

Health. Well we all have an idea in our heads about what health is, and depending on your circumstances, it's going to be a different thing. All I know is when you don't have it, is when you appreciate it's existence the most.

2011 has been "Year of the Ailment" for me. I've had some intense dental work done which left me with incredible pain in my jaws for weeks, a vertebrae in my neck slips out every few weeks requiring me to go to physio and only 6 weeks ago I had just got over a 3 week bout of gastroenteritis, which really put me out. I've also had a sprained ankle, my knee's a bit wobbly at the moment, and there's been various other little health issues here and there. But right now, without comparing myself with other's circumstances, I'd say I was 'fairly healthy'.

Health to me, is a strength, it's something that allows your body and mind to perform 100% the way you want it to. It's being able to recover from the various obstacles that life throws at you and move forward, it's about moving easily, thinking clearly and knowing you can.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

And We're Off!

I created this blog at the start of Round 2 2011 of Michelle Bridges 12WBT. But I never seemed to be able to start blogging. I didn't know where to start, or how to start. For me, my success through the 12WBT came through wanting to support others and watch them grow - it's been almost like it's too hard for me to put it out there and share what I am doing.

Now, the absolutely unstoppable Kath from The Courage to Start has a blogging challenge, I've decided this is it. I'm going to blog.

The funny thing about starting - I have a tough time doing it. Just taking that first step is the hardest thing ever. I was aware of the 12WBT from the very first round, but it took me a whole year to actually sign up, and make it happen. Even this blog, sheesh. It's taken me till now to start writing my very first entry!

In any case, here we go...

1. Describe yourself in 25 words or less. You can get straight to the point - or bring your creativity into play.
Hehe, sorry. Look at them though!!!! LOOK. AT. THEM. If life could be this simple, I would be a happy, happy person. I can't explain myself in 25 words or less. Human beings are complex, amazing creatures. 25 words I use today, might not describe me at all tomorrow!

2. What brings you to 12wbt? Getting fitter? Losing weight? (Gaining weight??) Are you first timer, a repeat offender??
Yet another life-time member - this is my third round. I started this because I was desperate to lose weight. Now, as I type this, I'm here at my original goal weight (the one I thought I would NEVER make it to) and am now here to tone up and you know, if I lose a couple more kilos I'll be chuffed. You know, I actually would like to lose about 5-7kg more but I am REALLY looking forward to putting weight loss behind me forever.

3. Why do you blog??
In fact - I don't! I always try. I am married to someone who writes for a living, so I am always extremely judgmental of my own words and maybe - just maybe - a little too much of a perfectionist to let myself just do it. One of my challenges this round was to start writing, to start documenting my journey and to start sharing. So here I am.

4. Who is your biggest inspiration in life and why (doesn't have to be weight loss)
I have two people who are my biggest inspirations for the way you should live life, and it's my husband and my best friend. I spent the earlier part of my adulthood believing I had to work really hard all the time at a job I hated to pay of debts for shit I didn't really need. I met my husband who was a struggling writer at the time, refused to take a Centrelink allowance because he didn't want them to make him get a job he didn't want, he worked hard, built his credibility and now has an amazing, extremely enviable job. My best friend, well I admire his hard work, his creativeness, his dedication. He is a wonderful artist with vision I could only dream of having.

5. What things in life bring you the most joy?
This is going to sound mental, but being in control of my life. It brings me peace, and what brings peace brings joy.

6.What do you think your greatest challenge is going to be this round?
Losing the last 5kg and putting weight loss behind me. I already seem to be trying to throw myself off track, and I can see a lot of bad habits starting to rear their ugly heads. I have been on the brink of opening the door to complacency and it is going to land me in a lot of trouble - so the biggest challenge is reinforcing that this is a lifestyle now and that don't engage in that behaviour anymore.

7. What are you most excited about 12wbt?
This is hard. I think this time round, I've lost a little of the fresh and new feeling I get with 12WBT - just the other day I found myself getting really annoyed with a bunch of people complaining about the program, the food, the amount of exercise. Kick off was still days away and they hadn't even given it a shot yet. They were already blaming Mish for their failures. I forgot to have compassion and see that they were just scared. They were where I was just 7 months ago.

8. And what scares the pants off you?
This is where I am going to be extremely honest. I am a brave person. I do whatever I need to do. But one thing, that no one knows, except those closest to me, is that I am extremely phobic of the dark. It's irrational, I know. But I just can't deal with it. I sleep with the light on in the hallway EVERY night.

9. Tell me - right now - today - how do you feel about exercise in no more than 10 words
I hate it. I hate it and I love it. It's part of me, who I am and who I want to be.

10. Complete this sentence - in 12 weeks time - on the last day of 12wbt I am going to be feeling ____________________
Amazing. Last round I have the final 2.5 weeks robbed from me as I was down with a ridiculous bout of stomach flu. At the end of this round, I will be healthy, fit and strong. I will know I put my everything into this round and that I'll be approaching 2012 with weight loss behind me forever, and a new fit life ahead of me.

Well there you have it. The first time I have been - as Mish says - arms open, gut wrenchingly honest with you all. I hope you come back and read again.

Nikki xo